I’m still here.

Today I weigh 196 pounds. I fit into pants that were too tight in 2007, now they slide off with the button still buttoned. My button-up white shirt is a bit baggy around the shoulder/arm area and I can wear a tank top without worrying about what’s hanging out where. I feel good. I’m not where I’ll be a year from now, but regardless, things are going in the right direction.

Stress has been lifted. I got a job! I’ll be working at Starbucks again starting Monday. I am so thankful for another opportunity to be part of that family, that company. (I worked there previously for about 2 years but was laid off when the store closed.) Since then I’ve moved across the state, started college (again), and started losing weight. And I feel good.

I start classes Monday as well. I’m taking Science Nutrition, Intro to Biology, Intermediate Algebra, and Photography II. I’m super excited to have things to fill my day. Its much easier to eat healthier when I’m not sitting around bored to death all day every day. This summer has been a good one in some aspects, but a devastating one in others (I.E. my bank account).

Hope you all are doing well.

P.S. I lied. I’m not going to post what I eat because I am too lazy to sign in and keep track. I have been eating lots of Morning Star products. Especially their soy chick’n patties and spicy black bean burgers. Its something like 130 calories and other good stuff. And its not meat, so I always feel better about my life. Lots of bananas and grapes lately. Veggies and fish. Coffee. Good stuff. Numnums. Everything in moderation is the key.

Quick updates

1. Swimming and I were best friends when I was a child. I was in the water before I could even walk. We have recently rekindled our friendship and its going strong. I even attended a pool party and wore my bathing suit in front of people I hardly even know.

2. Bike rides in Florida can be dangerous. Its really hot outside and really, really humid. Its difficult to do anything that involves breathing.  Not to mention half way into my last bike ride it started to storm out of nowhere.

3. I have not lost any weight in the past week, but I haven’t gained any either. Annoyed.

4. I can’t wait to do zumba this week because I missed the last two weeks. Regrettably last week I had to attend a funeral out of town so I was gone Thursday evening. Hence why I haven’t lost any weight.

5. I haven’t been overeating but I haven’t been updating either. Everything’s pretty regular. For my sugar fix I rely on nature valley bars with a little Nutella on it. Other than that, everything is healthy. Lots of spicy black bean burgers and viggie chick’n sandwiches. No fast food, no snacking.

6. Classes start in two weeks and I’m really looking forward to having something to focus on again. Hopefully I can talk my father into buying me some new clothes.

7. I have spent countless hours filling out applications with no luck (or hope anymore) of finding a job. I am so broke. Its pathetic.

8. I hope you all are doing well. :)

A little self motivation.

I feel like such a slob! Damn.  I really hate days like these.

Although I’m bored out of my mind, I’ve kept myself from overeating/snacking regardless of being hungry or not. That’s good. But I haven’t worked out in freaking forever it feels. I know I can exercise whenever I want to - but that’s the problem. I have absolutely no motivation lately. And I live in Florida, where it has felt +100 degrees for the past five weeks, so going on a walk/bike ride is sort of like torture.

I have to get myself over this slump. If I have my eating under control, then I can have my exercise under control as well. I’m going to a spinning class tonight.

Hello darlings.

Starting tomorrow I am going to post everything I eat again, because it causes me to be more cautious about what I’m eating and it keeps me from snacking/overeating.

Today I had a bean burrito from Taco Bell for lunch. Damn the two dollar meal deals. Fuck that. I don’t understand why the cheapest food must be the worst for you? I wish there was a drive through, two dollar deal for fresh fish or fruit and veggies. I don’t think America will ever get to that. Depressing.

This week I am going to try a spin class. And I am totally looking forward to zumba on Thursday because I sadly missed it last night. But I did go canoeing which proves to be a great workout for the arm/shoulder area.

Tomorrow, hopefully, I’ll be hiking in the woods. Till next time, everyone.

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Its been a while since my last post. I’m getting terrible at this. I only want to write when I’m depressed or hungry. Both of which I’ve been a lot lately, but I’ve been doing well to keep myself busy.

Today, I weigh 197 pounds.

At first this entire process was tedious and slow. I felt like I was doing a lot for very little proof. As the weeks passed, the pounds started to come off faster. I can feel myself changing from the inside out. Like I said yesterday to one of my best friends who just had a baby and wants to lose the belly, “its a lifestyle thing. You can’t just want to thin, you have to want to be healthy”. I’ve come to learn that everyone is working on themselves. Those who are completely content are few and far between. You shouldn’t feel embarrassed about anything if you think its right. And everything you do should be done for yourself. So work on, everyone. I hope you’re all doing well.

This may be a strange post.

Late last night/early this morning, around 3 a.m. to be precise, a friend and I were sitting in borrowed chairs, “star gazing”, as the cop put it.  We were trespassing - and although we weren’t doing any damage and we were literally just looking at stars - we still got in trouble. And by trouble, I mean we almost got arrested. Maybe I’m being a little dramatic, but either way it was fucking scary.

So it turns out that I’ve been driving with a suspended license since 2008 with absolutely no knowledge of that fact. I’m glad I never got pulled over! Abut anyways, that fucking cop kept my license that I hold very dear to me because it has my address on it from when I lived in my own apartment far away from this place.

All in all this entry is to inform everyone that I had to tell the cop my weight tonight while he was taking my information and I got to confidently say 199 pounds.

So other than the cop ruining my night and keeping my license, I’m pretty pleased. Its so nice to be under 200.

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Today I woke up on a solid 200 pounds which causes me to feel good about almost everything. I’m not to where I want to be yet, but I am on the way! And it feels good to be going anywhere but up (on the scale).

I haven’t been posting my diet at all lately - but - it does not mean I’m not doing well. I’ve been eating really well, actually. Almost no snacks. I’ve made a habit of eating bananas in my car because that’s always when I crave a sweet coffee drink or something to munch on. The other day I grabbed a 38 cent banana and was satisfied for quite some time. Anyways… I try my hardest at eating no fast food or soda. I’ve been almost 100% successful. Also, I try to keep anything processed to a minimum. [Fresh rather than frozen fish. Fresh vegetables rather than canned or frozen. If I do bread, then fresh baked bread rather than “commercial” bread. I can’t really think of the correct term at the moment. Etc, etc.]

Zumba tonight. I. can’t. wait. I am so lucky. I go to thee best class with the best ladies and the best instructor. Other than my tumblr followers, they are my support system. Its become a habit - this will be my 5th week in a row. I can’t even believe that. Who am I becoming?

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I need to go to bed so I can wake up and eat breakfast instead of fighting the urge to snack all night long.

SUHWEET

Guess who woke up and weighs 201 pounds?

Well, like I’ve mentioned before, the scale I own is ancient so I really couldn’t tell if the red line was on 200 or 201, so I’m going with 201 just to be safe.  But seriously, hell yeah!  Its just one pound, but its exciting to be so close to not being over 200 pounds. I can’t wait to beat down the 190’s.

Have a good day everyone!

Weight Update

On April 15, 2010 I weighed 215 pounds.
On June 11, 2010 I weighed 206 pounds. (This is when I started dieting)
On July 9, 2010 (today) I weigh 202 pounds!

That’s a total of 13 pounds lost since April, but 4 pounds lost in the past month.